The Last Step...

The city light spread across and the wind in my hair, 
An abyss below me, yet on my lips, no prayer, 
I take a deep breath and close my eyes, 
and i am reminded of all the pain and the lies. 

My heart was nothing but a toy, 
Breaking it gave you all the joy, 
You, I thought would be with me, always, 
Didn't know, separate were our highways. 

Slowly, the memory of happiness decays, 
On my broken heart, lucid insanity preys. 
Walking in the crowd, all alone, 
My eyes, nothing but a pleading moan. 

Rain and sunshine, feels the same, 
Nothing matters now, neither pain nor shame, 
Drunk in the early mornings, yet sober when I try to close my eyes, 
Why do I still see you and hear your lies? 

Pain, the new best friend, 
Loneliness, the destination of this road's dead end, 
Love and marriage was my only intention, 
Poverty, the only crime for your love's alienation. 

Now I smile, with my broken heart, 
It pains, in each and every broken part, 
Lost something that was never mine, 
The exact reasons I would never be able to define. 

No tearful good-bye's, no promises to be made, 
As I step into the arms of a destiny delayed, 
As the blackness surrounds me, 
I feel nothing, except for the promise of a life, that would no longer be.