A Child Recalls...

When I skinned my knees, it was he who bandaged my knee,

When I was sad, he would be the one to hold me,

When I was older, I would fight and shout, and he would just sit and smile,

Dad, it’s been a long while.

Through my heartbreaks and struggles,

He guided me like a general through the battles,

Spent years in awe of him in his uniform,

Now, I know, it’s the norm.

Wanted to be like him, make him proud,

I could always count on him to cheer me aloud,

He had his own heartbreaks and battles to fight,

Yet, always, to me he was like a benevolent knight.

In December, he wrote a simple letter, short and sweet,

Promising his secret recipe's repeat,

Except memories, nothing remains now, not even ashes,

Pardon me, I suddenly have something in my eye lashes.

Wish he was here so that I could tell him he is now a grand dad,

I would have given anything to see him hold her in his hands,

Yet I know he will always be there,

He was my strength, now he is my prayer.

Under Her Spell

It started to rain as she started to dance,

Every one that saw her was put in a trance,

Her eyes flashed with mischief,

She was stealing everyone’s breath, oh she was a beautiful thief.

The clouds parted, the moonlight made her aglow,

Her skin a hint of cocoa,

She had everyone under her spell,

She could lead and everyone would have followed her to hell.

Lost in the beat, I watched her mesmerized,

Suddenly she looked straight at me and I sat paralyzed,

I hoped it wouldn’t end, that she wouldn’t look away,

On me, I prayed for her eyes to stay.

As she smiled at me, her eyes full of amusement,

The moon hid behind a cloud, she was hidden for a moment,

The music paused, my heart skipped a beat,

I suddenly felt incomplete.

As the music started, she was by my side,

Pulled me to my feet, her silken hair untied,

Spinning in circles, we danced, just her and I,

And I knew, there won’t ever be a goodbye….

Days in Haze

I can’t sleep, I can’t think,

I don’t even feel like having a drink,

I am moody and withdrawn,

Only cause baby, you are gone.

Music only reminds me of you,

Waiting for the days when it only would be us two,

Weekends are nothing short of torture,

Save me from myself, from this horror.

My guitar lies somewhere forgotten,

As it only made me sound a bit broken,

But I am waiting, months, weeks and days,

The time now slipping past like haze.

I realize I have been in love,

I haven’t ever prayed but now I talk to someone above,

These feelings I can’t even begin to explain,

If you don’t come back soon I may go insane.

The days are slow and the nights endless,

I sit and feel so helpless,

Please come back home soon,

For it has already been past three full moons.

I might.. If you like

I might never be a billionaire,

I might never be able to quote Shakespeare,

I might never be the one with whom you fight,

But I can be the one whom you would kiss tonight

If you like to laugh while you dance,

If you like even a bit of romance,

If you would like to go for a drive with no shoes,

Baby, I am the perfect guy for you.

I might never be the guy whose ring you would wear,

I might never be the one for whom you would shed a tear,

I might never more than an afterthought,

But I can be the one with you in every snapshot.

If you like a guy writing poems for you,

If you like a guy to try hard and pursue,

If you would like to see a glimpse, just a preview,

Baby, I am the perfect guy for you.

Oh Baby, Here I am, waiting for you to make up your mind,

Hope you don’t leave me behind.

To make this night our best memory, I vow,

Let’s go baby, let’s go now.

Hey Girl.. Break Free

Hey Girl, You know our eyes met,

I swear, I was holding my breath and trying not to sweat,

Later, Saw you, fighting with him on the phone,

I wouldn't do that to you if you were my own.

I am sorry I am late,

But know that I am here and I will wait,

For you to make up your mind,

Coz, I know, you know, that you feel what I feel and you aren’t blind.

I know you think you love him but you know you don't,

I know you won’t be happy, You know you won't,

Girl, The way you look at me,

Come on girl, just break free.

You see, I loved you the moment I first saw you,

You are with him, coz he was the only one you knew,

You, I am not going to persuade,

You will have to rip it off like a band aid.

Know that I am here and I am calling dibs,

On every night and every day, on each and every trips,

For I have waited, and I still wait,

For a future that we will create.

Smoke and Dreams

Late night, stale smoke hanging in the air,

Sitting by the window in an old rickety chair,

The fan moving like a shadow of my own memories,

Slower than the pain of untold tragedies.

Suddenly, a gust of wind breezes in through the window,

Alone, yet I can see another shadow,

I stare and cant even utter a sound,

Feels like my feet are stuck to the ground.

Its you...

I know, for this feeling has been rare and few,

I can’t see you, Yet I know,

I close my eyes and am ready to go with the flow.

You, the reason for my being,

The memories come rushing back, no longer fleeing,

Oh, how I have searched for you, in the light and shadows, high and low,

With you here, I don’t want to think about yesterday or tomorrow.

Its you...

This time, this thought is so true,

My hands no longer feel like those of a stranger,

To love you, I shall risk any danger.

I see you now, just the same, as when we met last,

Are you a memory or is my sanity slipping away fast,

Doesn’t matter, for my arms open up to embrace,

As my heart stops beating, I smile, Coz I didn’t lose this race.

Darkness clouds my vision, yet the last thing I see,

Standing in the fire, You are here with me.

Never Good Enough

All of me was never enough to make you happy,

You made me try and then said you were not ready,

Even though I changed everything I knew about myself,

You said I was never was gonna be good enough.

Not good enough to make you smile,

Your adoring eyes, now clouded and hostile,

You were my desire, my dream,

Now I just wish I could find the strength to scream.

Not good enough to hold your hand,

Yet I stand and your hate I withstand,

I stand and all you do is push me away harder,

Why do I even bother?

Not good enough to hold you in my arms and kiss you,

Yet I pray to have my dream come true,

I am standing right here, look at me,

Tell me my fault, why you say, together, we will never be.

Clutching the pieces of my broken heart, I walked away,

For your happiness, I decided I shall not stay,

You never looked back at me as I drifted into the shadows,

Of my name, I vowed you shall not hear any echoes.

One day you will see me with another,

Happy and smiling, as a husband and a father.

Then you will open your eyes and see, my love, I was more than good enough.

Distance & Longings...

As I look at you vanish into the setting sun,

I have few regrets, but regarding falling in love with you, none,

My heart still flutters when I see you smiling,

Words flow and I just begin writing.

Prose and poems describing your beauty,

Loving you even when you are difficult and moody,

I have loved you with all the pieces of my broken heart,

Of me, you shall always be a part.

Everyone asks me how I am, and don't believe,

When I say I am happy, surprised as to why i do not grieve,

But I know I have loved you and you have loved me too,

For that, to your memories I shall never bid adieu.

It hurts to see you go but I shall wait,

For I do believe you are my soul mate,

Maybe things will change when you set your foot on that foreign land,

Think of me and I shall be there to hold your hand.

This distance between us, may cause us pain,

You may become sad when the skies darken and it rains,

But hush my love, don't shed a tear,

I am there with you always, you have nothing to fear.

A Kiss to build a dream on ...

Saturday Morn, bright sunshine and I was lazy,

Memories of last night were few and hazy,

But then I remembered her face and couldn’t help but smile,

Suddenly the hangover and the headaches were worthwhile.

A surprise at the end of the day,

Coz I met an angel, from heaven who had gone astray,

A little naughty, a little crazy, twirling and dancing,

Everything about her was meant to make the heartbeats go racing.

When I saw her, our eyes met and I was under her spell,

To talk to her, I was willing to invade hell,

Yet before I could take a moment to think,

She was standing next to me, all in a blink.

Hours passed and we danced and talked,

In our private little world we were locked,

Then she looked at me with a look that made my heart ache,

Oh, how do you dream when you are wide awake?

Feeling the moment slip away, 

I wished she would stay,

As we held hands and looked at the first rays of the dawn,

She kissed me, a kiss to build a dream on!

Man and his Sword

Fantasy wrapped in lies,

His blade dropping bodies like flies,

The daggers of betrayal stuck in his back,

Trust and faith could not stand the attack.

Heart pounding, ragged short breaths,

Surrounded by the chants of bodies close to death,

Arms numb, yet still swinging the sword with precision,

He could not fail, that was the only precondition.

Unknown to life, Nor known to death,

His wake filled with wreaths,

His soul and his blade truly merged as one,

He shall stand and do what needs to be done.

An Unlikely Lover

As she fell from heaven, 

He knew if he didn't save her, his love for her would never be proven,

So he dived after her, going faster and faster,

With his sleek wings breaking, one by one, just so he could reach her.

To save her, any war he would win,

To save her, he would commit any and all sin.

She opened her eyes, in shock, when his arms slid around her waist,

To crumble into the dust of hell, he braced,

Yet he prayed to the entire universe, 

To save her, for he had already chosen his course.

He made a bargain lasting an eternity,

His soul for hers, a fair exchange, no absurdity,

As he opened his arms, to let her free,

Love and understanding in his eyes, she could see.

To save her, any war he would win,

To save her, he would commit any and all sin.

Now he stays, deep underground,

The only one without a soul, where he was crowned,

Never regretting the choices made to save his love,

Yes, the devil was an angel in love, from heaven up above.

Death by Heartbreak

A day, then a week and now a year has passed,

Her smile and her voice felt like ghosts of his past,

He wakes up daily with an ache in his soul,

He knows she wont be there to make him whole.

He dons a facade and works day in and day out,

While inside, he is breaking and all he wants to do is shout,

His instinct screams to just wait a little longer,for she would definitely come,

Alas, his heart has grown numb.

See the clouds of despair hang low,

There is no light at the end of the tunnel, not even a glow,

As the man who loved her slowly ceases to exist,

He feels he could have won her, had he been strong enough to persist.

Feeding his desire and starving his will,

The pain becoming a scythe sharpened to kill,

To love someone was his only mistake,

Such is the tale of the man who died of a heartbreak.

Moon and the Stars

Its a full moon again tonight,

Its been two months since you took that flight,

You are so far,

All I have for company tonight are the stars.

You are so far away,

These stars fail to make you sway,

The world goes on and shadows come rushing onto me,

I cant find you, You I can not see.

I am alone with my thoughts,

O Girl, I miss you a lot,

Will you ever come back to me?

From this anguish will you set me free?

I close my eyes and hear the wind whisper your name,

Without you, nothing is the same,

Just close your eyes and hear me say,

Come back, my love, and stay.

The Unknown Beggar

There he stands by the side of the road,

Arms full of pictures and certificates, yet with his head bowed,

Blinking back tears, he waits for the light to turn red,

Hoping to God someone would believe him this time instead.

A car stops and he knocks on the window,

Knowing if this one man helped in any way, he would be his hero,

He tells his tale and hopes against hope,

But frustration is his only ally, how can he cope?

Light turns green, and the cars move on,

He dejectedly moves to the side wishing someone would believe that this is not a con,

He wishes he was not so helpless,

He wishes someone would help him in this hour of distress.

As the light turns red, he moves again,

From car to car, he is turned away, yet he moves without showing his pain,

As he knocks another window,

His hopes are nearer to zero.

The Lady of the Wind

There she stands,

alone, as she surveys the realm she commands,

With her eyes sparkling like the city lights shining through a window,

She looks out to the future, to tomorrow.

Dressed in black crisscrossed shadows of the night,

She is dusk's first star light,

Her eyes kissed by the gentle kiss of the kohl,

She devours my mortal soul.

As the gentle breeze lusts over the nape of her neck,

from her lips, My eyes steal a peck,

With the innocent love that she radiates,

With devil, my life, I renegotiate.

In her smile, bashful, yet full of secrets,

I discover my ultimate weakness,

Yet as I find her, she disappears,

Just as the sky parts and rains, its tears.

As the Fugue lifts

As the music played, the fugue on his mind cleared,

Finally he understood what he had always feared,

The nagging doubt gnawing at his thoughts,

Now he could make sense, connect all the dots.

Here he sat in his chair yet his mind was among the stars,

He remembered how he had gotten each and every of his scars,

It was him, he could now remember,

As well the reason for his own willful surrender.

Now, bound no longer, by the spell,

Oh, he was going to raise hell,

Run you fools, all of you,

For you know who is back, you know who.

Last day of Sunshine

Today the sun didn't shine,

Now my words may never rhyme,

For today, I realize I lost before I could even start,

Now there is only an empty space in place of my heart.

I felt love, I felt joy,

Didn't know, in fate's plans, I was just a toy,

lost, I wander in valleys unknown,

For here she wont hear my soul cry and moan.

I loved her smile, Nay, I always will,

Yet her admission, was my poison pill,

For the dreams, I had seen were shattered,

in these harsh winds, they were scattered.

For today, the sun didn't shine.

I thought I would be able to win her heart,

Now all I do is try and not fall apart,

Maybe the fault is mine, or maybe its destiny,

But for me, this feels like the death penalty.

No prayers answered, No divine intervention,

If I had to fail, why did I ever have these feelings of affection,

Her beautiful smile, may it always be radiant,

For my love would always be her constant.

As the vultures of despair start descending,

I bid her love, even with my broken heart aching,

As tears roll down my eyes, 

I know with a smile, She I would never despise.

For today, the sun didn't shine, 

for today, was my last day without sunshine.

Lovers of our past

A man goes on a journey when he is born,

Through pain and happiness, his soul is torn,

He goes on living, looking at the beautiful sky,

searching for some meaning, the answer to his single why.

Traversing the sea and the land,

searching for his answer even in the tiny grains of sand,

Hoping to see what and who he longs for,

Silently, fulfilling his duties, yet his heart and mind are at war.

A breath of fresh air, guides him,

a faint smell of Jasmine, like a haunting hymn,

makes the next step a bit easier to take,

the next smile easier to fake.

Weary from his exhaustion,He takes another step and falters,

He has come far, far away from his home by the waters,

In this wilderness of pain and tears,

He has grown old, His strength is gone,and his heart is full of fears.

He knows not what is the answer, emptiness he alone can comprehend,

Yet he knows his time is at an end,

He looks up and sees her smiling down at him,

He knows its her, the answer he has been searching for, even though his sight grows dim.

He asks, "Why have I found you at my journeys end?"

She answers, "For I have walked by you and guided your path, For I was here in your heart, where you didn't look me."

and his heart and mind stop their war, at peace at last,

Ti's ends the story of two lovers of our past.