FOR MY TIGRESS

 Crumpled satin sheets,

Tip toeing on bare feet,

 She kisses me gently,

 & heads for the door quietly.

 I grab her hand and pull her back,

 Her eyes, joy they lack,

 I hug her and kiss her gently on the ear,

 & trickles down her face a single tear.

 It’s been fun she says,

 But now I cannot stay,

 I look at her innocent face,

As if making a memory no one could ever erase.

 I am kissing her,

But still I am missing her,

Her kisses turn passionate,

 & we get drawn towards each other as if by mandate.

 I don’t know if anyone is above,

But I pray for him to protect my love,

Life is as rough as clay,

But I wish she would stay.

 Holding her in my arms tight,

The clock struck midnight,

 I smell her fragrance one last time,

And I am left speechless as a mime.

Beautiful eyes; Ugly inside

Just because you came to know that my feelings for you ran so deep,

Now you do anything to avoid me,

I just want to make you weep,

to answer the one question in my head, How could she?

The long walks and the careless laughter and fun,

Now you act as if I dont matter anymore,

The first time I felt a stirring in my heart, I should have run,

My soul is tired and bruised, yet you never heard me implore.

Your beautiful eyes hides an ugliness inside,

I hate the pain you inflict on me everyday,

I fail everyday to remove you from my memories,so deep they reside,

One day, someone will ake you pay.

You will know the pain as I feel it everyday,

You will not remember me then, the day you feel the same pain,

But in this life, you will pay,

and feel exactly what you made me go through, again and again!!

Dont expect any mercy from me,

Dont expect me to be your friend,

What you did was disgusting and bare for everyone to see,

No more will I fall for your smile, and thus these lines I have penned.

Heartbreak Warfare

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Romeo and Juliet is not a love Story,

Its a heart wrenching tragedy,

Sometimes this is how life turns out to be,

Minor changes you just miss, till the cracks are obvious for all to see.

Heartbreak is a myth for men, all women would say,

But oblivious to them, its the other who also have to pay,

not with money, but with silent tears,

on realisations that were hidden to the visions of countless seers.

Madness and insanity, apt words that describe,

A remedy for this; no one can prescribe,

But what happens when love dies a brutal yet slow death?

Stiffled, its last gasping breath!

Love, a word that emphasise's the connection of two souls,

Heart, that's left in the aftermath, riddled with accusations and holes,

Eyes, which see and yet can not believe the torment,

Hands, which join in prayer,in hopes to heal; to understand what was meant.

Anguish, the reward for always being understanding,

Blame, the reward of the suggestions ever made,

Despair, that hangs around the room, like a hot iron branding,

A war, that clutches ur heart, which still despairs for answers, unforthcoming.

Hope, the ever optimist raises its head after the war,

Disbelief, at the distruction ;too vast to ignore,

Afflicted by the emotions of memories of times, both good and bad,

To the newfound pain and burden, it only adds.



The girl in the black dress

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I paused outside the door wishing I did not have to be here,
A happy occasion and a party my somber mood could not bear,
Yet I sighed and knocked on the door,
And was duly ushered to the terrace, above the first floor.

The black starless night reflected my inner emptiness,
I asked HIM questions, yet received only silence.
As I entered, a twinkling of light caught my eye,
There in front of me stood my answer, HIS reply.

Before I could see her face I hear her laugh,
As if mocking my state of hubris, cutting my pain in half,
Then she turns and every ounce of breath from my body departs,
And life starts to beat in my heart, in all its shattered pieces and parts.

Her eyes, naughty black, like a starry night,
Her lips a faint red, beckoning me to kiss, an urge I fight,
Her tender shoulders mesmerizes me,
While her black dress drapes on her curves,gently yet sensually.

I walk over to the bar and grab a scotch to soothe my nerves,
Yet the warmth and high I feel, the credit,scotch doesn't deserve.
I turn around to see her again,
When I dont see her, in my heart, I feel a dull pain.

Was she an angel or was she my imagination,
or merely my inner desires translation,
But I knew what I had seen and heard,
Confirming this belief, something in my heart stirred.

I wander around in the sea of happy people,
My ears strain to her her laughter,as if in a pond, a small ripple,
Suddenly i feel a pair of eyes on me,
I turn around, and looking at me, its her I see.

My mouth runs dry,my heart thumps a mad jungle beat,
She looks at me and smiles, tender and sweet,
I want to go upto her yet I can not,
Thankfully,I smile back yet inside me was chaos and panic, and a tangled knot.

She saunters over and we get acqauinted,
Yet, inside I was praying and glad I had not fainted,
The first time she leans over to say something in my ear,
I could not understand why my heart beat so fast, was it excitement or fear.

Minutes sped past by fast,
We felt strangely connected,as if we knew each other from a life long past,
Happiness filled me, mending a broken heart I never suspected I suffered from,
No longer was I the same, no longer I was Numb.

As the time to say goodnight crept up on us,
she again whispered in my ear, and on my cheek a gentle caress,
Just two words whispered, " Thank You",
My life would be turned around, who knew.

Now ages past that fateful night,
I still remember her, the angel who gave me the strength to fight,
Who I remember and miss,
and always remember the gift she gave, the kiss.

Pain or Love?

What do you want in the man of your dreams?

Good looks or the size of his wallet?

You broke my heart and turned my heartbeats into screams.

The ache and pain changed the colour of my blood into scarlet.

I loved you and was always there for you,

But in the end, I was always an option for fun,

And all you craved was something new,

never thought that after the declaration of my love, you would run.

Your choice amazes me, for you chose him,

the kind you always detested,

was this a flight of fancy or a chance plunge on a whim?

whereas you always told me that in me you are interested.

You blow Hot and you blow cold,

What is it that makes you flux like this?

How do you have, on my thoughts, this hold?

why, for ages, I have been dying to kiss ur lips?

You shout and you scream,

But can not take it if I do the same,

You were my aspiration , my dream,

Now I wonder, if you even remember my name.

Ages have passed and yet this feeling lingers on,

A dull ache that never seems to die,

Why cant I forget you and move on,

why about my feelings, do I have to lie?!

A thousand reasons you gave me for my one question,

Yet your smile rekindles the ache inside,

Needless to say I was shocked by your decision,

I wish this love for you in my heart, would no longer reside.

Leaving it to chance

I am leaving it all to chance,

I fell in love with you at first glance,

But now I feel you are drifting away,

All my attempts are useless in convincing you to stay.

Inside my heart is breaking,

But for the world I am still smiling,

What did I do, to face this loss of your heart,

How did you make this decision of staying apart.

I know that I have been too wrapped up in my work,

and sometimes my mood goes berserk,

But all i say to you,

Do you still love me, as I do?

The pain necomes a disgrace,

Nights wrap its arms around me giving me solace,

I spend wandering aimlessly through the day,

and my lips whisper on their own, your name and a silent pray.

I look out the window and see what I now have lost,

My success has come at such a heavy cost,

Love, happiness and aim were all because of your inspiration,

All I have is an empty bottle of whiskey near my desperation.

Tell me, where did I go wrong,

I thougt you and I were meant to be for life long,

But now that you have decided to leave,

The broken pieces of my heart would be impossible to retrieve.

I want to hold you,

I want to kiss you,

But most of all, I want you to forgive me,

For my happiness was right next to me and I could not see.

Helen of Troy

Its 2 a.m. and civilisation is asleep,
Yet, in a quiet room there is a girl who is about to take a leap,
From being an ordinary girl to something mere mortals would call a goddess,
But I have seen her, and I know she is a temptress of Gods.

Zeus would fall on his knees to just kiss her hands,
He would stop the flow of tide and the sands,
To have the moment for himself,
But he had to let go, and now his name is a myth itself.

Aries would have waged wars against all mankind,
But her smile rendered him blind,
With an immortal life,
He mourns not being able to make her his wife.

Athena would have been jealous of her beauty and sent evil to her side,
But thwarted they were, Due to her innate goodness inside.
Pain would have been Athena's companion,
Her chasm of grief as deep as a canyon.

Against a small lamp she stood,
A angelic smile on her lips that few understood,
Wearing a simple white dress she exuded happiness,
Her aura, ageless.

Her delicate shoulders would have been enough to render half Gods clueless,
Even the mighty Hercules would have turned powerless,
The enchantment of her smile would have made mere mortals become spellbound,
and the gaiety of her laughter knew no bounds.

She is just a simple girl,
blessed with somethings that are out of this world,
Beautiful inside and out,
but beware, with her never mess about.

She can be gentle as a summer breeze,
Dangerous when she is at unease,
Loving and warm when she likes you,
But Gods and mere mortals never stand a chance, when her mood turns blue.

She is .. the Helen of Troy

The High Flying Girl

Once, there was a girl,

Studied medical but wanted to see the world,

Without any wings she now flies,

Looking at her, Every male heart beat flutters and sighs!!

Beautiful....your beauty

ur eyes remind me of a siren of the seas, whose beauty could bring Zeus to his knees.

Ur lips hold the secret of the universe,

From happiness to love, they hold my salvation in situations adverse.

The nape of ur neck is a distraction for mere mortals like me,

It engenders feelings that seem to be otherworldly.

I spied u once, walking in the moonlight,

Ur skin shimmered as if it was made of starlight.

I heard u laugh, once upon a time,

The beauty of that sound, renðéredh me speechless as a mime.

The grace in your walk, exudes the charm of a goddess,

Naughty in its sway, deadly yet painless.

Like a slave, to this mortal shell I am chained,

A kiss from you is freedom, a glimpse of heaven attained.

O goddess of mine, grant me my prayer,

Reveal thyself to me, an honour so rare.

Shut up & Listen

U didn't understand that I was sad,

U didn't understand that my pain was bad,

U cud have just did what I wanted for a change,

I blame myself, that I became deranged.

I didn't need a lecture from you on anything,

Heck, the fighting made it more depressing,

You want the fucking world to understand you,

When have you ever done anything to console me, when its just us two?

Things are good when I can keep you happy,

But you can't control or support me when my mood is crappy.

You hide behind what you consider r the lessons of your past,

Now the void between us becoming vast.

I do not need to patronized nor do I need to be tutored,

Neither am I an asshole who is capricious.

Ur tensions and mood swings, I support,

But when I need the same care, you just fold and deport.

Ur main aim, it seems, is to get me to accept everything as my mistake,

Let me tell yóu now, it leaves a bitter taste.

Coz not everytime I can be wrong!!!

Lies!!!

I can't believe it that you lied,

It feels as if a part of me died,

I trusted you always and told you everything,

You did not know that I knew what was happening.

I shall not forget the feeling of you breaking my trust,

with every word, it Feels like a knife in my heart you thrust,

Yesterday I was filled with hatred and sadness,

And today, you are now just a face in anonymity and randomness.

Be happy, cause the decisions made were your own,

This new skill, go ahead and hone,

Funny that you don't even know that you have been caught,

And yet, an explanation I never will sought.

Years ago, I was in love with you,

Yesterday, I was an old friend, not new,

Today, you are just a liar,

Tommorow, you won't even be remembered, when I am lying on my pyre.

Go ahead and live your life,

But now I won't be there to guide you when you go through hell and strife,

Yesterday, you were my everything,

Today, to me you are nothing.