Leaving it to chance

I am leaving it all to chance,

I fell in love with you at first glance,

But now I feel you are drifting away,

All my attempts are useless in convincing you to stay.

Inside my heart is breaking,

But for the world I am still smiling,

What did I do, to face this loss of your heart,

How did you make this decision of staying apart.

I know that I have been too wrapped up in my work,

and sometimes my mood goes berserk,

But all i say to you,

Do you still love me, as I do?

The pain necomes a disgrace,

Nights wrap its arms around me giving me solace,

I spend wandering aimlessly through the day,

and my lips whisper on their own, your name and a silent pray.

I look out the window and see what I now have lost,

My success has come at such a heavy cost,

Love, happiness and aim were all because of your inspiration,

All I have is an empty bottle of whiskey near my desperation.

Tell me, where did I go wrong,

I thougt you and I were meant to be for life long,

But now that you have decided to leave,

The broken pieces of my heart would be impossible to retrieve.

I want to hold you,

I want to kiss you,

But most of all, I want you to forgive me,

For my happiness was right next to me and I could not see.